was it my heart?
or was it my mind?
the uncontrollable thoughts,
running wild...
just another day,
or another 22+ hours,
we'll bid farewell to 2005,
and welcome year 2006...
yet i aint excited at all.
without his love,
without him,
i havent found any joy in life.
this' nothing but the fact.
i know its time i should let it go.
but there are just many cant-bear-to.
what am i suppose to do?
all i wanted,
was just another chance.
another chance to prove myself.
but am not given so.
though as promised.
promises broken.
promises unkept.
promises unfulfiled.
it was all that i was given.
to me, from him.
it was all the heartbreaking nothings.
all the sweet lil nothings,
all the sweet&lovely sayings..
werent meant to be true.
they were just another pack of lies.
a new year's arriving.
an ending to the unhappiness.
all i want is to be happy..
all i want is to be back with him..
even if its meant to take my life,
i wouldnt mind..
so long he comes back to me...
my life,
my love,
my everything <3
i need you,need you back in my life.there aint nobody better,come back baby please.cos' we belong together~
its pointless to say this now..
but still,
Merry Christmas!!a belated one though =xalrights...
its been ages since ive update.
no mood to, dont want to.
lalala~havent been doing much.
just, alot of working..
alot of vcds marathons..
alot of drinking..
alot of slacking at home..
alot of nights spent outside..
and alot of shopping..
and i guess i wont be doing much..
more working, and working.
more drinking, and drinking.. haha.
school's gonna reopen soon.
very soon.which is like... HELL for me.
by the way, i aint transferring anymore.
i was promised a very good deal.
so just gonna stick by where i am now.
which suck more than anything else.anyways, school will be like shit next year.
or has it been like shit all along? hah.
cant be bothered.
im just gonna study,
and get good o's results.
the rest aint my problem.
to hell with them, and
that school (:
and yah. ive yet to get my books. LOL.
work hasnt been very smooth though.
there are good and bad times of course.
but well, just gonna live with it.
so long i get my pay on time every 2 weeks =xgonna find a better job next year...
get my year bonus of my current job...
and off i go, and leave that place.
cheerios (:as for my love life,
him...
sad to say, it still suck
prettyvery much.
but well, time heals
not all wounds.
and with my current hectic working life..
im far too busy cum tired to think so much.
guess i have to gonna live life as it is..
gonna take a step at a time..
if its meant to be, it will be.
and if its not, it will never be...
so well, getting on with life kinda fine..
just that he never gets off my mind. OH WELL~what else have i missed out?
nothing else i guess...
except for FUN and HAPPINESS.
hah.well. gonna go off soon.
work tomorrow.
but vcds marathon later. LOL.
till then.
drey: ive updated!! haha. and have you changed your url? update me okays? take lotsa care (:aiai: ive updated too!! haha. how have you been? but anyways. about him, read on top. LOL. and we've yet to go out. you ass.. i wont deny, i miss you still as much.
